This photo always makes me smile. Clarkfield, Pampanga, Philippines 2000
My comments on the past few days at JTV have been received with both positive and negative comments in the chat rooms, in the blog comments, in private messages, in email and on the air at JTV headquarters. I knew when I started posting the daily commentary that I was opening myself up to all kinds of responses. I had not made the blog public until a while after I started writing it because I was not sure how willing I was to “hearing” what people had to say about my writing, my opinions, my message, but as with the times I showed up on Stickam this week, I just held my breath and took the plunge.
I have always tried to be gracious, especially early on after having had an expletive hurled at me in response to a piece of mail I sent to the guys at the @justin.tv email address before the blog ever came to life. I have approved all comments, with one exception — a vulgar comment months ago that appeared to be directed at nothing or no one specific — just nothing anyone needed to be subjected to. Even those that are challenging what I write and I attempt to do it without unacceptable language. I have pulled back on personal strikes, which I realized were unnecessary an probably about as immature as some of the things I was ranting about.
I would never be so presumptions as to state that I am JTV’s number 1 fan. The most obsessed, yes. I spend far too many hours here, too many days and nights. I do it for a few reasons, but I have never claimed to be the #1 fan. This is why I am here:
- I like to see what’s going on outside my own little world
- I like to see what is happening in the world of technology
- I like chatting with the 2D friends I’ve made here
- I like learning and I do believe I have learned something everyday while on JTV — whether positive or negative
- I am anxious to see JTV blossom and achieve the success they are working toward
And as I’ve stated over and over, I find inspiration in what goes on to the point that it gives me something to write about and I can’t stop writing.
Lincoln Memorial — Spring, 2007
What Justin and team don’t seem to realize is that I have been a supporter, at times a defender when they or the site have been the object of ridicule. When the Jonas Brothers were on and the site went wild, I could have joined in on the bashing, but I thought it was great that they’d found something to draw people to the site and I said so in the blog that night. Yes, I certainly have my share of negative comments, I’d be the biggest fool on the planet not to acknowledge that, but I have tried to find a more balanced place. I make a point of throwing out praise when I see something that I believe is positive, even when others tell me they think otherwise.
I reada what “Freddy Farce,” (who has a rather familiar “voice” ;) posted on the blog today:
Ok. Enough of attacking JTV without seeing / discussing how the competition or other community portals handles these issues as well. Terms of Service states an age of 13 years is allowed. And it is their parents choice not yours, jtv, or anyone else.
I agree, I have not discussed how the competition handles these issues other than a brief mention or two, but I am not writing as a paid blogger or journalist. If I were, I would be spending part of these days calling people, fact checking, researching, looking for background, and more. It is a blog — an electronic journal. If I do decide to wrap up my JTV experience and put it between two covers and call it a book then yes, I will need to do some extensive work researching, reading, interviewing and doing the things necessary to make it something credible and worthwhile reading, but for now, it is a blog that has been commissioned by no one other than whatever it is inside me that compels me to sit down at this black laptop every day to ensure I accomplish this crazy goal of posting daily.
Automated tulip in Buenos Aires, 2006
Justin Speaks to a Missing Justopia
Rather than having the viewers tell me what Justin said about me, I wanted to listen for myself and I was taken aback when he turned his head away from the guys and looked straight into the camera and with a look and sound of disgust addressed me as though I was there and told me that a friend would be a friend and have nice things to say, not curses and that when he came over to see me doing the cooking show on Stickam and he hung out for 5 or 10 minutes, he thought it was good and he told me so (at which point one of the guys challenged him on that and he backed it up saying that he did think it was good) and that he told me so. Again, it’s tough to really get what people are saying when they are in a one way voice conversation or chatting online, but I only remember Justin saying that he was there to check it out and see how Stickam performed and that for him it was choppy. I did not realize he had been in the room until well after the fact, but I did tell him I didn’t know that it was choppy and that it was very hard to pull off a short cooking demo.
I also wrote in a post this week after a Stickam appearance that detailed a few of the negatives I experienced on Stickam which I have cut the comments from that post and pasted here:
No, I don’t see myself walking away from JTV so quickly — Jeffy and Linus and even Justin and iJustine are there to entertain me and keep me engaged, but the quality of Stickam will be a draw for those that want to try it out. A few things that I don’t like:
I think the chat is flash like Ustream and it doesn’t play nicely. Correcting typos is excruciating most of the time — just backspacing takes time, if it even works.
Sound is an issue. When it’s just one caster, it’s awesome, but with multiple people streaming it’s tough. There can be an echo or just too many people talking at one time. It can be overwhelming with 7 people at the same time.
The video is a little small, although the resolution is quite good and when Ted did picture in picture (PIP) I could still see him and yours truly clearly, not that I wanted to see me!
Yes, I went on Stickam. It was the 2nd night iTed could not get his channel to work on JTV and we all moved over with him for the evening. I did like what I saw. It was smooth and clear and the audio was amazing, but the next night when I wanted to try a cooking show, I hosted. I do not have a JTV code and I have not asked for one. Stickam is a flash in the pan, 4 clicks and you are streaming online alternative and what better way to test it out to see if I liked doing it before putting myself or JTV through the paces of getting a code? One of my JTV friends has suggested I get a code to test it out, but I just don’t want to be sitting in the graveyard of dead icons if I decide that I really am not into it after a day or two.
Before I close this topic, let me reiterate what I’ve said in a recent post — I think the the JTV team has made great progress. While I see problems technically and otherwise, I am still around viewing and participating and continuing to wait to see the big breakthrough. I thought the Yahoo appearance by Justin and iJustine was great while others bashed it, it and am one that has always enjoyed seeing them or any of the lifecasters make appearances and I hope it continues.
On a brighter note, as people were PM’ing me and making comments in the room to get me to go check out the archives in Jutin’s room, I was in for a surprise when I opened WordPress.com. There in front of me in the top position of the left hand column was my icon and a link to Living the Justopian Life under the Technology heading. I am not sure how, but I made it to the landing page. It brought in a few hundred hits in the afternoon, and that was about it. I wonder if I can embed JTV into the blog? I’ll have to try it out when I am not in need of sleep.